And I mean it, the future is uncertain and scary, but that doesn't mean it can't be amazing and brilliant.
I for instance have officially applied for University now, aaaahhhhhhhh!
I can't even express how excited I am that I am finally taking steps towards my future, and how unbelievably scary it is, what if I don't get in anywhere, or into the uni I really really really want to go to, or what if my artwork isn't good enough or what if I don't get enough money to actually live and afford fabric or anything, ahhhh!
I know that last bit was filled with a whole lot of "what ifs", but life is full of them anyway. What if, my ex and I hadn't of had that argument, what if, I didn't study as much as I did, what if, i didn't make friends easily, what if, what if, what if.
I just need to believe in myself and my decisions and focus on the good things. Like all the stress of college will hopefully mean I can get into university!
Unfortunately I can't tell you which universities I have applied for, but they'd find this post and then know who else I've applied to and they aren't allowed to know that. Also hardly any of you would know any of the universities anyway, because they are obviously all in nice rainy England.
But I can tell you, that one university has so far asked for an online portfolio, and I have an interview with a different university and I only sent off my application 4 days ago, so aaahhhh, still waiting for one of my top choices to reply, so until they do, I'm going to be petrified, even though I know they said on the open day that they interview everyone, I can't help but feeling nervous!
I also need back all of my A-level artwork so I cant probably start building up my portfolio, which will be bloody stressful!
I am, however, looking forward to my incredibly future, and I will definitely make the most of it!
(I promise once my laptop has got a new battery I will blog more)
So remember, each day, live a little, laugh a little and love a little. ♥